Thursday, February 12, 2009
Changes
Last night I was holding the baby and looking at Easton, and I felt a sudden sadness that Easton's status had moved up to big brother and not my little baby anymore. When did he get so grown-up? A little while later I picked him up, and I think that he grew a foot and gained 20 lbs just since Teagan was born a week ago. He just seems like a giant now, and I suddenly felt very sad that he is getting so big. I know life is all about progression, but I didn't realize that having a new baby would cause me to see Easton as this old, intelligent little being. I also felt a little guilty that maybe he hasn't gotten enough attention from his Mommy lately because Teagan is at the needy stage in his life. Easton is so independent, and I kinda feel like telling him, "Hey, be more needy cause you're my little boy, and don't forget that." I guess it's kind of weird because life has been all about Easton for 3 whole years, and suddenly he's got a little brother raining on his parade. Easton's completely fine with it, but Mommy's not okay with this sudden growth of his independence. Granted, I am post-partumy and emotional right now (fun, fun), so I'll adjust to all these changes. This is one that I didn't think of, though. I'll probably be a basket case when I send my children off to school for their first time. And I always wondered why there were crazy moms crying at the kindergarten playground. But I think I get it now.
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You know what? ALL of my friends who have two kids (or more) have said, that when they had the second one, they felt sorry for the first one. Because they felt like the first one was getting neglected. And that's just the way it is, cause the new baby needs so much attention at first. But Easton will have so much happiness playing with Teagan later on!
I totally know what you mean. I feel even worse because my older son really is a baby still but I can't give him attention all the time. I LOVE snuggling with Alex and rocking him and letting him still be a baby. I know it is hard on him sometimes to have little sister around but there are also times when he really loves her and that makes me feel better.
Yes, that's a given. You WILL cry when Easton walks into Kindergarten. I did, and half our ward at school we all cried together. I know exactly how you feel about being sad that he's not your baby anymore. I felt the same way. I also know that you and Easton will just always have something 'special'. Max and I do. It's because you got so much one on one time and now it will never be that way again. It's a good thing, though. Just enjoy it all....it's part of the package! You are such a good mommy!!!! And of course, your boys are adorable!!!
Oh you will see how much you will change being a mother to TWO. Just think different. I must say though I never felt that way about one child because I never got that luxury of having only one, but I guess I did get the luxury of havin two....see you this weekend.
After bringing each of my kids home from the hospital, I swore the older one had grown so much in those two days too! Its crazy and sad and I know exactley how ya feel! Oh and I only teared up when I dropped Luke off at Kindergarten. Just had to brag:)
I felt the same way too! But it gets better with time, specially when the youngest one gets a little older! Just hang in there...Those hormones will calm down a little!
He gets his dark hair from me.. and my side of the fam.. I had an inkling he would have my dark hair.. although that can easily change in a matter of weeks.. so you never know!
Rachel you are too funny and too cute! Baby Tegan is the cutest little guy! I will have to come see him... maybe this weekend... anyway i would love to do lunch or dinner or something with you guys so yea when you are up for it again gimme a call and im game!
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