Just Another Monday

5-24-10  Another beautiful day – began with a morning walk, edited some pictures, cooked a wonderfully healthy dinner, had FHE and a ride on the golf cart, and – the low part of my day – fed my family root beer floats while I had an apple :(. Oh, the injustice!

I’m really appreciating this wellness challenge I’ve signed up for. The sugar cravings are dwindling, sorta, and I’m so thrilled that I’ve been making such healthy eating choices.  Aside from adding 2 servings of fruits and veggies and removing sugar (table sugar) and unhealthy snacking and fast food, I’m actually eating regular meals (I’m so terrible at being a meal skipper!) and also getting my essential fatty acids. I feel really good just knowing that my body is actually being nourished.

For my goal this week, I have to come up with something that I like about myself every day. Now, this is no easy feat for me – I’m very much a self-criticizer. I can name what’s wrong with me in alphabetical order. I think it’s a common problem with women – I’m never thin enough, pretty enough, funny enough, good enough, motherly enough, wifely enough, righteous enough, and the list goes on. And on.

I had a member of our Stake Presidency tell me this week that Satan will whisper in the ears of wives and mothers that they are unworthy, not doing enough, not good enough. And when we believe that we are letting him drag us down so as to not have the influence over our families that we should because we are too busy hating ourselves. For me, committing grievous sins are not my weakness. As mothers, as women, our weakness tends to lie in hating ourselves for whatever silly reasons we’ve come up with.  President Lytle continued to tell me that when Satan whispers those lies in my ears to ask myself “What are my desires, and am I striving?” If we can answer those questions with the right answers then we are absolutely worthy and we are doing enough.

So tonight, I will say that I think that I’m a pretty good photographer. A lot of people enjoy my work, and I’m grateful to be able to share that talent with others.

Oh, almost forgot – during FHE tonight, Easton said the prayer that went like this: “Heavenly Father, bless mommy and dad and bless Teagan and  . . . (pause) I wish I could have a worm.” :). Love that kid.