Better Things Ahead

I didn't know it could be this good - this much fun, this much compatibility, this much love. I know I already posted this picture, but how cute are we? Jacob is the reason I am always smiling. I love him completely. Honestly, I didn't know that a man could actually be so devoted, so entirely concerned with my well-being and happiness and that of my boys as well.

It's always humbling to see the hand of God reach out and put something in your life when it seems that things are at their worst. I worried that I wouldn't be able to love again or to trust anyone. I worried that my opportunity for a fullness of joy was lost when my marriage failed, that somehow his choices had forever robbed me of my happiness. But I am most certain that better days, even the best days ever, are ahead and that Jacob will be there to show me what it's really supposed to be like. I'm already amazed at how much different - and in this case different meaning entirely better - things are with Jacob. I felt alone before when I was married, and it's because I was. But with Jacob, I feel him there with me. I feel the sincerity of his adoration.

I love you, babe. I love that we can work together towards the only goals that matter in this life or the next. I love that you get that, that you get me, that you love my boys, and that you're here, and you aren't leaving now or ever. I love that you want to keep me, and that you realize that keeping me means waking up every day and deciding how you can love me more than you did the day before. I won't have to be alone in that thinking anymore, and that brings me comfort and assurance that our togetherness can only get better. Love you to bits, Jacob. That's what's up :).