It’s 12:27 am (so technically Wednesday), and here I sit on the computer doing nothing with my life but losing sleep. And it feels good. Not in the morning, but tonight it feels good. It’s not that I’m not tired, because I am. I’m always tired from not getting 8 hours straight for months. But I just can’t go to bed when I haven’t had time to do absolutely nothing. Sometimes I just want to do what I want to do, and I don’t get the chance to do that when the children are awake. I want to be a mom all day, of course, but I also want to make a craft or read my friends’ blogs or eat a cup of ice when I know Logan isn’t waking up or Easton isn’t hungry or Teagan won’t be asking me for milk. I love those things, I do, but I’ll lose sleep so that I get the chance to feel like I’m not just being a nurturer all day. I suppose that’s why my mother always went to bed so late. I used to stay up late with her while everyone else was sleeping. I have been a night owl since birth.
Yesterday Jacob worked his first 14-hour day. It wasn’t so bad but I was at my sister’s pretty much the entire day. After I picked Easton up from school, we headed to Walmart so that I could pick up some things and then went to Becca’s to swim and plan Sadie’s birthday party on Saturday. Bec wants it to be cute, and she knows what’s cute, but she doesn’t have the drive to make it cute herself, so she recruited me to do all things planning and crafty. I don’t mind – I actually love planning parties. We didn’t get much planning done, though, because I realized that she doesn’t really care what I do as long as I make it cute. So I did some planning and shopping today mostly to decide on a color scheme and theme and start on some paper pinwheels.
I moved Logan to a 3 1/2 hour schedule yesterday, and I think it was just what he needed. He took 2 long naps and 2 short naps, and he did the same thing today. I fed him tonight at 9:15, and he was done and asleep by 9:35. Jacob didn’t get a chance to see him because he got home right as Logan was finishing his bottle. He also slept 10-6 last night but went right back to sleep until 8am once I brought him to lay in my bed with me. He’s such a darling little thing and such a good little baby. I forgot to post these pictures of him with his happy morning smiles on Thursday.
Yes, yes he is to die for.
Today we spent the day at home. Easton kept asking me if we were going to go somewhere or do something fun. After school I got Logan down for a nap, and then I gave the boys hair cuts and used this nifty hair umbrella that I bought off Amazon a couple weeks ago. I hate cutting their hair because hair gets everywhere, and they complain the whole time about how itchy they are. So this worked pretty well. They still got some hair on their neck, but it was a huge improvement. Their hair was WAY too long.
After hair cuts and Logan woke up from his nap, I ran to Walmart and Michaels to get some stuff for Sadie’s party and a few groceries as well. I realized just an hour ago that I left my bag from Michaels in the cart at the store. I was too busy trying to get my boys out of the store and into the van. Sometimes going somewhere with the 3 boys is quite the escapade. I get the “Wow, you have your hands full” look from non-LDS people. If they only knew that I actually want 2 more children than I already have.
Jacob has had a couple of long days. He’s had patient after patient and hasn’t been able to sit down and rest or even eat really. It’s weird with him being gone so long, but it’s not as terrible as I thought it would be. We just have to make it through tomorrow and then he is off for 4 days. I can’t wait.
And there are only 2 more days of school, and I still have a knot in my stomach when I think of it. Easton can’t grow up anymore – I don’t like it.
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