Grown-up Conversations With a 3-year-old

Last Night Easton and I were laying in bed getting ready to go to sleep, and I asked him, "Why did Jesus give you to me?" And he sweetly said, "Because he wants us to be a famyee." Sweet, I know.

Later we were chatting about me getting married again sometime, and I told him that if that happens that he's going to have to sleep in his own room so that my husband can sleep in my bed. And he says, "He can seep at his OWN house."

I also was asking him where I can find a new husband. I suggested that maybe I can find one at church, to which Easton responded, "No! The kids will be sad. You can't steal their daddies!"

Then later on, after the lights were off, Easton was snuggled up rubbing my face, and says to me, "Mom, what happened to you?" I didn't know what he was talking about, and so I said, "What do you mean?" He then said, "A yong time ago, yast year, you used to yive wif Daddy. But he have his own house now. And he have a new girl." All I said back was, "Yup I did used to live with Dad." But then I didn't know what else to say so I started singing him a song, wondering how the heck my 3 year old even remembered that his dad and I used to live together when he was 2. The fact that he asked me, What happened to you? caught me off guard. I'm not ready to explain the misfortunes of mortality to a 3-year-old. I don't think it's fair that he is asking that. He doesn't know why his mom and dad don't live together, and most of the time he still says that Adam is my husband but has a new girlfriend.

Easton talks a lot lately about times that Adam and I lived together in the same house. Just last week he told me about a vacation that we went on a year and a half ago and said, "That one time when Daddy yived at your house, he climbed on the rocks and took me in a cave." I don't even know how he remebered that, since it was over a year ago, and he was only 2 at the time.

I guess I don't realize that Easton gets it. To a certain degree, he REALLY gets it. Maybe not all the grown-up complication behind it, but he knows that something happened that made us not be together. I never in my life imagined that I'd have to have this conversation with my kids. This wasn't my plan for life. It wasn't what I wanted for myself and my kids. But such is life sometimes. I'm just not really sure how to explain it to Easton.

Still more pics to come from our vay-cay.