Sunday, September 14th

I feel like things are finally settling down a bit around here.  Emerlynn is 2 months old now, and I feel like I've gotten the hang of her for the most part. She's much less fussy than she was, and I think that's partly because of her trips to the chiropractor, getting her on the right formula (Hipp organic which I have to order from the UK), and the fact that she's getting older and putting on more weight. She is still up every 3 hours at night, but she generally goes back to sleep after she's finished her bottle. She is pretty routine about taking her bottle around 10pm and going to sleep right after that. I feel like there is hope that one day she'll actually sleep through the night. My mother, who I swear is straight out of heaven, has relieved me of baby duty many mornings and even some nights so that I have been able to catch up on my sleep. Bless her heart for that. 

Tomorrow Emerlynn finally has an appointment with a pediatric dermatologist. The hemangioma on her cheek has grown rapidly and started ulcerating, so the poor girl is in pain whenever it gets bumped. She actually has numerous smaller hemangiomas all over her body, but none of them have formed sores like the one on her cheek. It's impossible to take her out in public without getting stares and plenty of questions about her face. I just hate to feel like people are judging her, so I can be a little defensive at times and overly sensitive about people's curious glances. 

  

It looks like a giant scab, and you can see it's progression over several weeks. 

It looks awful, poor girl. 

But look at that perfect little face! It melts my heart, and all I want to do is kiss and kiss that sweet little mouth. 

Hopefully at our appointment tomorrow we can get some answers and decide what to do for treatment. At her first appointment at 4 weeks, they were just going to let it do its thing, but now that it appears to be ulcerated and painful, this dermatologist will likely prescribe medication and laser therapy. That's what I'm thinking from what I've read myself, but we will see. I can't wait for it to be gone. After her bath one day this week, it just started bleeding pretty heavily, which my pediatrician warned me could happen, but Emmy just screamed and cried like I've never heard before. So I know that it's painful now, and I hate that! Hopefully we can get rid of this dreadful thing ASAP!