Mother of the year right here. I spent the entire day screaming at my children, only to tuck them in bed tonight and mark this day off as a miserable failure. Reminds me of the book Alexander and the Terrible Horrible No Good Very Bad Day. My kids kept bickering today. Teagan whined and screamed incessantly, although that’s not unlike any other day. He also ripped our favorite book and one we borrowed from the library. Easton spilled green beans all over my couch and mixed the play dough into one big ball even after I told him not to. I hate that brown color that play dough inevitably becomes. And Easton just got out of bed to tell me that Teagan took his jammies off. Beautiful. Blissful day. Jacob worked all day and won’t get home until 9 tonight.
Sometimes I wonder who would ever entrust children to my care, especially on days when I prove to have not even an inkling of patience. It’s always comforting to know that my children will likely carry on into their own lives all my bad habits and bitter failings as a parent. This brings warmth to my cranky heart on an especially cranky day.
“What would Jesus do” seems so simple a question. But I sometimes have no idea what He would do. When my children are bickering at my feet all day, creating problems all in the name of giving Mom something to solve, sucking the sanity out of my brain, I feel like all I can do is refrain from locking them in a dark closet and then myself in an even darker and more hidden one.
I love my children. So very much. But honestly, sometimes I feel like I’m failing miserably, and by doing so, I’m teaching them to fail miserably as well. My grandchildren are doomed.
Easton just came out again to tell me that Teagan took his jammies off again.
Heaven help us.
2 comments:
Thanks for your honesty! Often I flip though my blogs of interest and every one looks like life is perfect. Nice for a reality check sometimes, nice to be reminded that I am not the only one out there that is not perfect! You are doing a great job! Keep it up!
All I can say is I hear ya. Loud and clear!
Nathan's uncle said something once that I think helps. He said parents take too much credit for the bad stuff their kids do and not enough credit for the good.
My kids are doomed to inherit some embarrassingly bad traits from me... but hopefully some good ones too???
Heaven help us, lol!
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