And there she is. Little miss Emerlynn Patrice. There’s no dangling appendage, no protrusion of any sort. Just a little slit, and that is a very unfamiliar sight in this household. If you remember the day I found out Logan was a boy, I was pretty upset. I was so sure he was a girl, and both Jacob and I had our hearts set on a girl. That disappointment lasted for a day, and then I became content and excited about my house full of boys. It’s me and the boys, always me and the boys. And now it won’t be. In all honesty, there was just a little bit of disappointment as the ultrasound tech pointed out the absence of a key appendage to make this little baby a boy – it wasn’t there. We were very much ready, and excited, to have four little boys living under our roof.
My boys are perfect, not in the sense that they do nothing wrong, but in the sense that they are boys that love and cuddle and dote on their mother. We have something perfect between us. They are little darlings in every way, and they’re all I know and all I love. That’s what I mean when I say I was a little disappointed because I was super excited about getting another little brute to add to our family. I want a girl, I do. I need a daughter to be my friend when my boys grow up and start cleaving to their wives. But what will a little girl do in this place? I’ll have to comb her hair and learn various sorts of braids. And make her look like all the other little girls do – lots of bows and painted nails, princess dresses and trendy clothes (there are always cute clothes to be purchased). Ain’t nobody got time for that, and yet she can’t run around looking like a dirty ragamuffin, so I’ll have to make time.
Out of genuine excitement for us, several people have commented that I am FINALLY getting my girl. As if after having spent my time in the sludge of parenthood, I am finally coming out victorious (as inferred by an overly-sensitive pregnant woman). Nothing unkind or offensive to my boys was meant, but it kind of made me feel like they were saying, “After all those nasty boys, you’ll finally have a little girl to make up for all the suffering and pain”. Again, nobody implied that, I only inferred it. And I’m certain nobody thinks that. But I got a little defensive, inwardly. We would have been so excited to have another boy. How we love little boys! But we are getting a little lady, and how we will love her. I’m sure of it. We’re just very surprised, so this needs to settle in.
But now she’ll need a sister because what girl can possibly live this life without a sister?!
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